Today I’m hugely conflicted.
I awake to a smart phone that flashes and beeps 24 hours a day, 7 days a week with social media notifications, and bereavement alerts of one description or another.
But today is not just another day; it’s the anniversary of my nephew’s death. So I have notifications and reminders of this fact via Facebook, emails & texts- as if I wasn’t already acutely aware of the date.
The conflict is whether I share my memories or photos, or my feelings in such a public forum. Do I change my profile picture? Post a photo of my nephew? Post a loving memorial telling ‘the world’ how much he’s loved and never forgotten? Or do I keep quiet, and privately remember, and treasure our short time with him, and all the joy he brought in the three and a half years he was with us?
As a bereavement support worker, I’m an advocate for being open about death, dying and bereavement; a death denying society is not a healthy one in my opinion. Death is a natural part of life, and grieving is necessary and healthy. But I’m not sure I want to express my thoughts and feelings in such a public way, or to people that never knew my nephew.
Which brings me here. To a fairly private, largely anonymous forum where I can express myself to those who ‘get it’, without the platitudes, and devoid of the ‘stalkers’ who are my friends that read but don’t comment..
This is my way & you will have your way.
So this is my tribute to a beautiful child that touched our lives in so many ways.
Always loved & never forgotten 💛